2 posts in less than a month... I kick ass.

I am once again pondering whether I really want to be a lawyer. It's becoming more & more a reality that I will have to deal with and I don't know if I'm up for the stark unromantic majority of what I will have to do. I don't want to spend my days looking up shit on westlaw or lexis and preparing motions. I want what the movies & tv shows & books promised me. I need to find a niche in the legal field that will allow me to do that. Maybe if I carry around a little tape player (or ipod mayhaps) with the DUM-DUM new-scene sound of law & order and I play that every time I get bored as a lawyer it will make it seem more fun.
The scary truth is I've always assumed I'd be a good lawyer, but I really have no reason to be sure of that. Deep down I wanted to do something artsy or literary, you know, like writing books. But I thought that would be a waste- the easy way out. I wanted to contribute something you can sink your teeth into, like successful lawsuits, not some namby pamby novel to junk up the shelves at barnes & noble while deep down I would prefer people to read real classics rather than my book. It's like forcing yourself to eat your green beans and hope you have room for the ice cream afterwards. As Marotti said, inside every lawyer is a failed poet.